Just an update here. I have not fallen off the planet (nor the wagon). Currently, I am starting into my inventory. Better said, I am starting into my inventory again. I started it close to three years ago, but it stalled out, like the rest of my recovery. Now, I am starting back into it again. Unlike last time, I am going to finish.
Talk about a hard step, and for multiple reasons. You would think that with all the shame associated with the memories, they would hold now draw, but even the memory of them is still triggering. At the same time, I am horrified of sharing them with my wife. It is going to hurt her so much! At the same time, it is also necessary.
Anyway. I am not dead, nor have I given up. I just have a hard step ahead, so don't know how much I will be writing here.
~Sean~
