Awakening

If ye will awake and arouse your faculties, even to an experiment upon my words, and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of my words. -Alma 32:27-

Becoming aware - or awaking and arousing your faculties - is an important part of the process of learning to believe. In what ways are you more aware today of Jesus Christ and His power in your life that you were last week? last month? last year?

Last week? Well, my knowledge of how he can help me is greater. I feel that he loves me more. It's hard thought, because the differences are not very pronounced.

Last month? I am using his help much more now that I was a month ago. At that point, I was only barely starting into recovery again. I had forgotten about many of the things he could do to help and strengthen me. I had also forgotten how much he is willing to look past my shortcomings, as long as I repent, come to him and ask for help.

Last year? Well, a year ago, I was well into my sobriety without recovery. I relied on my own strength mostly and didn't repent very often. That is still something I struggle with. I have had this problem with my addiction for so long, that if I am not acting out and committing large sins, I feel like I don't have anything to repent of. Thus I go coasting along with the little things adding up. I was definitely doing this a year ago. No relapses, so I was good.

~Sean~